Perhaps George Castanza wasn’t so foolish after all. He did the exact opposite of what his head told him to do in one episode of Seinfeld and he ended up getting a job at the Yankees and dating some hot babe. Sure, it was fiction but maybe the idea wasn’t completely crazy.
Maybe I should start doing something more risky. Playing it safe all the time has just proven to be a dangerous thing for my sanity. WTF am I doing with my life? And why do I care so much about whether or not I hurt other people? Most of them don’t give a damn about my feelings. Everyone else seems to feel that the end justifies the means in life, so maybe I’m the crazy one. Maybe I’m the one who needs to change. Maybe I need to stop thinking about what bad things might happen if I take a risk and focus on the good things that will probably actually happen if I do that. Is it better to regret doing something than to regret not doing something? Perhaps I should be more spontaneous and stop trying to plan every little thing in my life out beforehand.
I recently did something that my head told me might be a bad idea, but it ended up being amazing. Actually, some of the best things I’ve done in my life have been things that I originally was uneasy about. Logically, I thought they were bad ideas but my gut told me I should give it a chance. I did and it was awesome!
And I think I need to maybe start listening to Dr. Drew and all the other psychologists for a change… and realize that when you just date the “same guy” over and over again, you are never going to find happiness. I’m not talking about the actual same guy, but just guys who all have the same personality traits and stuff. I always go for the nice guys, which seems logical but it never works out. So maybe I just need to date an asshole. Yeah, that seems stupid. But I keep dating guys that bore the hell out of me. And they don’t seem to have much going on in their brains. Sorry. But don’t we all know that the most creative, intelligent people are usually “crazy”? If I’m going to be screwed over in the end anyway, it might as well be fun while it lasts.
My head is telling me not to post this because it’s going to piss off some people. So that means I’ll post it. hahhahahahahhaah!!!!!!!!!!!!